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Time is running out

Who hasn’t felt at some point in their lives that time was running out? Certainly not in youth. But, at a certain age, we start pondering this question and try to figure out a roadmap and stick to it. We probably make a bucket list of things we want to do or want in our lives. Some, like myself, […]

by Laura Carbonell

Let’s make new memories!

It’s time, she whispered. I agreed. It was time to get up and move on. Living out of a suitcase is more than fine, what’s not is staying still in time, waiting for a future that may never come. So, I packed up my mental bags and rethought my plans and situation, and decided to be […]

by Laura Carbonell

Disappointment, lethargy, and Trump

Never has this been so dangerous, when lethargy follows disappointment. In a world where a Trump rules, we cannot let lethargy or depression take over. We cannot allow the world to go backward and be stripped of the advance and progress of equality and freedom. We cannot allow it! Now is not the time to be […]

by Laura Carbonell

The thrill of being alone

Ever since I was 16 I’ve been in a relationship. The fear of being alone was scary, so you can well imagine that some of my choices were not the best. Sometimes, I now feel, I didn’t even choose, they chose me, and out of fear of solitude, I went with it. Yes, very sad. […]

by Laura Carbonell

Those gloom and doom days

All my life I’ve suffered from “Gloom and doom days.” They come, run me over like a speeding truck and then, the next day, for no reason at all, the cloud lifts and I feel OK again. I can face another day, unlike the day before when my mind is so fogged by negative thoughts […]

by Laura Carbonell

The importance of mourning loss

I thought that the best cure for pain was getting busy and trying to forget at any cost what had transpired. But it doesn’t work that way. Or at least it hasn’t worked for me. Those solutions are temporary. Getting over pain takes a period of mourning. Now, I’m at that point, and I’m not […]

by Laura Carbonell

Frozen by indecision.

After a year of constant decision-making, following my heart and intuition to the best of my ability, I now find myself frozen by indecision. However, it’s not big decisions feel unable to make, but simple everyday decisions as whether to dine out or at home. I know this happens to many after the dust settles […]

by Laura Carbonell

When thoughts are toxic

It may not happen often, but when you allow your mind to wander into dark places, thoughts can become toxic. The longer you stay there, the more prone you are to focus on them and allow them to rule your days. Toxic thoughts are those that cloud your mind with fear. Everything may be OK, […]

by Laura Carbonell

Have you ever felt desperately lost?

As a kid, I got lost a few times for about a couple of minutes. I let go of my grandmother’s hand while looking back at something that attracted my attention, and for a few seconds, this desperate feeling of being lost in the world forever made me fret with anxiety. It also felt as […]

by Laura Carbonell

Rising from the ashes.

It’s been five years and a half since the hurricane of change hit my life. Some things went down hard and ugly, but it also brought many blessings. As I write this, Florida weather has turned cold, just a day before I head back to San Francisco where I made my home 21 years ago.