When you have more yesterdays than tomorrows

Shhhh… She bent over the table, got close and whispered: “At this point in my life, I test the waters. If something doesn’t make me extremely happy, I leave.” This came from someone my age. She has, as I, more yesterdays than tomorrows. We giggled and nodded knowingly because we both know well that there are […]

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Instagram: a diary

I love photography, and therefore I love capturing moments and posting them on Instagram. I look back and I can almost feel the moment I took the picture, the emotions and the story behind which often has nothing to do with the picture itself. I’ve taken to it like a diary I check back on […]

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As best we could

Soon the leaves will begin their descent, leaving trees bare. It’s life; it brings us a beautiful spring and then tears us down slowly. The winds and the rain batter us until we become like broken children, however older and more tired. Every fall breaks us a little until winter sets in and we have […]

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Sad music can make you happier

Allowing sadness to take over is the best way to fully experience happiness sooner. I can attest that when I run from sorrow it only comes back at me and cuts into me more deeply, lingering longer than I’d wish. That’s why allowing sadness to settle by experiencing the moment it hits me, is the […]

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Melancholy is slowly breaking my heart

The problem with human beings is their ability to remember the past. I live now in an almost constant state of melancholy for all I lost along the way. Everything rests there in some hidden part of my brain, waiting to be triggered by some place, person or thing I come across. I’ve returned to […]

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The joy of scattering ashes and love

Today we scattered Dearest Drew’s ashes by the sea and the trails she so much loved to run, where all San Franciscan dogs come to play and roam free. It felt like closure. I was able to say goodbye to my dear companion and friend. Those who don’t have dogs can’t really understand how much […]

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Finding my new home with UpNest

Since I was a little girl I tried to prepare myself for the worst, maybe in weird ways, but still, I would imagine what would happen if… Any case scenario worked. As I grew older I still did the same but more realistically. Even before I got divorced I would check out, in this case, […]

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Farewell my dear Drew

My bestie Drew passed away January 8th peacefully in her favorite spot, the living room. next to the curtains where she would watch and make sure no intruder trespassed without her permission. Even at 14 years old she was there looking out for us. When I was deprived of Sparky, after my separation, I found […]

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