I always felt lonely.

As I start a new life I find myself evaluating what has led to this. It is important to look back and think about what’s happened as a form of cleansing and acceptance. What arises is in my case is sadness and anger, all at the same time.

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We are patchwork quilts.

All the people we care about are like pieces of a unique material that makeup our safety quilts. When one piece goes missing, a whole is left that can no longer be replaced. We can patch it up again, but the reminder of the piece of material that used to be there in its place, […]

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What lights the dark path.

I used to get lost in things I thought were important. A job, a future, clothes (yes!), but along the way all those things ended up filling me with anxiety even if they seemed to be lined up perfectly. Now, the list of important things has changed and what lights my sometimes-dark path and helps […]

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The promise I didn’t keep.

Promises are sometimes made liberally, at a time when we’re caught in the web of emotion and make them out of either love or pressure.  I’m guilty of a few broken promises, but especially one I made to my deceased grandmother Catherine. This weighs on me like a tombstone and the guilt still haunts me, […]

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There are no endings.

There are no real endings, just continuity. Yet we keep wanting to turn pages hoping that the last ones won’t count or will be erased by time. We can’t will an ending. Things end by themselves when time decides to blur and hide away places, things or people we find hard to let go of.

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While you were sleeping…

  The world constantly changes while we are sleeping. This used to be the preamble of many an e-mail sent to an overseas friend. ‘While you were sleeping” I was busy going about my day… And then I would retell, as in a diary, what had gone on in my life during those hours my friend was asleep in […]

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