Losing my grandmother

My dad and I made sure we went into the hospital room together. My family had decided we should go in pairs all the time, where we spent most of the day holding onto my abuelita who raised me and my other three siblings, myself since the age of two. My grandmother had been in […]

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We all need those hugs

We all need companionship of some sort. Someone to hug, the warmth and knowledge that someone has our back keeps us relatively stable as well as knowing that someone cares deeply about us. It’s said that people who hug or have a significant another live longer, and I can understand very well why. We are not […]

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The joy of scattering ashes and love

Today we scattered Dearest Drew’s ashes by the sea and the trails she so much loved to run, where all San Franciscan dogs come to play and roam free. It felt like closure. I was able to say goodbye to my dear companion and friend. Those who don’t have dogs can’t really understand how much […]

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I’ll love you no matter what

I have 5 children. They are not really mine, I’m just their aunt, but they feel like my own children ever since they were born. I’ve already suffered their growing pains since they were little and now that they are in their teens I feel a sort of loss, every real parent must feel. But no matter […]

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What we all pursue

We believe that what we all pursue is happiness. But happiness is a modern invention someone thought up and made a business of it. There are thousands of books trying to sell us how to attain happiness but none deliver. They can’t. What we really pursue unknowingly is validation, but most importantly love. Unconditional love. […]

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Becoming soft hearted

My dear friend Tom told me once that I was as tough-hearted as a dude, whatever he meant by that. This was about 24 years ago and somewhere along the line, I became very soft-hearted. Looking back, I do understand where he came from. We used to date before we became best friends and that […]

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Farewell my dear Drew

My bestie Drew passed away January 8th peacefully in her favorite spot, the living room. next to the curtains where she would watch and make sure no intruder trespassed without her permission. Even at 14 years old she was there looking out for us. When I was deprived of Sparky, after my separation, I found […]

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My new companion, my new best friend.

When I heard my mother wanted a dog years ago for emotional support, I dismissed it as some crazy idea. A dog? That’s work, not emotional support! But then, little did I know that years later I would be eating those words and would find myself enjoying the best emotional support and unconditional love from […]

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Disappointed but not brokenhearted.

When I was a teen, a terrible one, my father always told me, “lovers come and go, but I will always be there for you through thick or thin because you are my daughter, and I love you unconditionally. Don’t ever forget that.” Now, more than ever, I know this to be true.

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