Fifty: payback time

All those fun parties, sleepless nights, stress and some gold old drugs in your youth come at a price once you turn fifty. But, it’s inevitable. When you are young you think you are immune to everything, as it should be. Living a super conscious and cautious life in your youth is no way to live. Some […]

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When I want to die

Maybe I shouldn’t say this, but sometimes when I’m down and life gets too hard, it helps me to say aloud, with no one around, that I want to die. How can this help? It does, and a lot. Saying and acknowledging this feeling, this wanting to die, is like choosing to live. I let it […]

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Stop questioning life and start living

As a kid, I wondered what life was about and now I finally know. Life is about what is important to you. Life is a string of moments that become our lives. We borrow life to later return it. There’s no complicated universal explanation. And it’s very simple; we breathe, we stop breathing. What’s complicated […]

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The road to getting well is bumpy

Nothing could have prepared me for all this sudden change. As scary as change has always been for me, now I welcome it. I’m reaping the benefits of living in a constant state of uncertainty and have learned that the road to getting well emotionally and physically is always bumpy. All the bumps, potholes, turns, […]

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The importance of mourning loss

I thought that the best cure for pain was getting busy and trying to forget at any cost what had transpired. But it doesn’t work that way. Or at least it hasn’t worked for me. Those solutions are temporary. Getting over pain takes a period of mourning. Now, I’m at that point, and I’m not […]

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Those scary places.

Once in a while when your safety blanket of comfort has been taken away, and everything is new, you have to reinvent your life and make it fit again, but it’s a scary place to be at. Change is scary because of its newness and unpredictability and you find yourself holding your breath hoping it will […]

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Frozen by indecision.

After a year of constant decision-making, following my heart and intuition to the best of my ability, I now find myself frozen by indecision. However, it’s not big decisions feel unable to make, but simple everyday decisions as whether to dine out or at home. I know this happens to many after the dust settles […]

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