Shhhh… She bent over the table, got close and whispered: “At this point in my life, I test the waters. If something doesn’t make me extremely happy, I leave.” This came from someone my age. She has, as I, more yesterdays than tomorrows. We giggled and nodded knowingly because we both know well that there are many advantages to having reached this point in life when every day is a treasured soon-to-be yesterday, and there’s little time to waste. If something isn’t fulfilling, why not ditch it?
When you have more yesterdays than tomorrows you see everything in a different light. I personally notice and appreciate things that at a younger age I overlooked. Now, I see sunsets as miracles. The fall in all its glory, while tinged with sadness, being as it is, the death of summer, is a beautiful spectacle I enjoy. There are many other things that cross my path which I view in absolute wonderment now. It’s like going back to childhood, where the smallest things became magnified and we looked at them in awe.
However, when you have more yesterdays than tomorrows, you must find the courage to recover and move on faster. You cannot linger on a page too long because you know that time is not on your side. It never was, it’s just more imminent now.
With age, you must learn to see your future as very limited so as to figure out what is worth your while. If it doesn’t enhance your life, get your bearings, pack your bags and head towards brighter and lusher fields.