They say we cannot will ourselves to do something if the heart isn’t in it. I’m afraid we can, but the results are often disastrous.
For the first time ever, I’m taking the time to choose what I want to do. Maybe not for the rest of my life, but for the next few months or years. I can actually do this, thanks to my kind friends. While I am not above doing anything, and would like to will myself to do many things, I just need to wait and in my search, find what my heart will actually tell me to do. It will, I know.
Now, I’m more able to read what my heart is trying to tell me. If it feels off, I shouldn’t do it. I’m crouching, like a tiger, waiting and ready to jump full force towards whatever my heart says I should do.
However, I have to do the footwork in trying to find what my heart wants. Believe me, I am. At the top of the list, is making a difference. It’s not an “ideal,” I know I can do it because I have in the past and it’s bliss.