While I grieved I forgot…

While I grieved I forgot others who are still alive and important in my life. I focussed on my loss, my pain and allowed this to fog my days. I have held to that loss with a strong grip and remained focused on it as if letting it go or connecting with others would in […]

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When grief has nowhere to go

It sits there, like a rock in your stomach not allowing you to move on without difficulty. Everything takes a herculean effort. Senses are numbed, and what once brought you joy easily, now you have to fake it somewhat because you cannot keep talking about it. So, you keep it bottled up, the grief, with […]

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Maybe…

Maybe we met briefly or became fast friends at school. Maybe you’re my family and put up with me as a teen and through the tumultuous years leading to recovery. Maybe I’ve wronged you by not tending to our friendship often enough. Maybe you were my husband who shared a good 17 years with our […]

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Why some of us need more downtime

I as many others may seem social, happy and thriving in the company of people, yet at some point, we suddenly feel the urge to run home and hide from the bustle, seeking downtime to recover and collect ourselves and our thoughts. It’s like coming back home to the security and safety of ourselves. I […]

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Love of my life

Last night I went to see Bohemian Rapsody, a tribute to Freddy Mercury. While there may have been some untruths and exaggerations, it’s a love story. The story of a love; self-love, passion and how we all have our inner demons that rarely people see and probably don’t need to. Love of my life, a […]

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And we wonder

If someone will ever care enough to hold our hand and hug our hearts completely. If that someone will hold us close, and even temporarily, erase our fears, and worries. If they will believe we are worth their time and decide every day to stay by our side. And by wondering we will at least […]

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Selling my life on eBay

I love jewelry, but at this point, I’m ready to let much of it go. So, I started selling my life /memories on eBay. Every piece, one by one, is finding a new home. Some pieces were precious at some point, but given that my nieces will probably not want them, I’ve decided to put […]

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My sister lost her best friend today

My sister has many friends, but this special friend came with no drama, was genuine, loving, caring, selfless and most importantly they had a long history of memories together. I believe this was my sister’s longest friendship that never ceased even when they were oceans apart. They kept in touch and shared their storms. Losing […]

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Mindfulness through pampering yourself

I’m still recovering from loss, and as I write this I’m fully aware that this act of pampering myself may come off as way too frivolous, but it actually helps me to be mindful. To ruminate less, and do something that makes me feel good. At least for a while before retiring for the day. […]

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The emotional toll of online dating

Every relationship takes emotional energy but also has its rewards. With family and friend relationships it’s usually an easy sail. You know what to expect and you rarely have to part ways, until one of you dies. Online dating, however, is the most energy and time-sucking experience I have ever had. One gets to experience […]

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