Another Year

Another year disappears behind me, unnoticed, unceremonious.Once again, my family and I trace our hopes and dreams onto paper, as if naming them might keep them from slipping away. This year, I offer less.No plans. No striving.Only being—and the fragile hope that it will be enough. Time is a human illusion, a construct we cling […]

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How I miss thee

I ruminate a lot, perhaps too much. Lately, especially after turning sixty, I find myself looking back to my childhood, my teenage years, and during this Christmas season, to those little-big moments with my dad, my abuelita, and my nieces and nephews, whom I can hardly believe have grown so grown. I remember when Christmas […]

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Learning to Stay

What one can achieve in sobriety is deeply personal; it looks different for everyone. For me, the emotional challenges were far more difficult than the physical ones. Alcohol gave me a false sense of self. I felt free, uninhibited, as if I had finally broken the chains of shyness and insecurity. But that freedom was […]

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In search for joy through shoes

After reading “The Body Keeps Score” by Bessel van der Kolk, M.D., I have had several realizations about my personality traits and how they have shaped me as a person. One particular realization has to do with my infatuation with shoes, which has puzzled me for some time. Until the age of 36, I owned […]

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Stop searching, because this is it.

Stop searching for the meaning of life. This is it: there isn’t any. We come to the world alone, we leave alone, and in between, we live, laugh, dream, cry, suffer, enjoy some joyful moments and search for the answers to living a happy life. And that’s it. This is it—the raw truth. But, there’s […]

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Another great Thanksgiving alone

This is my second Thanksgiving alone by choice. The last one, was spent with Drew, my pup companion at the time and it was a very heartwarming evening. This one, I have no pup to spend the evening with, but I still chose to be my own company on a day when everyone is with […]

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